every engineer knows that a minimum of three historical data points is generally required to ascertain a trend. i was cautioned that the effects of chemo on my body would be cumulative and, with the exception of my first treatment (which was in a league of its own!), i can now attest to the fact that this trend does exist. i seem to feel a little bit ickier each time we go through this drill, and the chemo has certainly done its job in knocking down my white blood cells, leaving my count this week even lower than the first concerning dip. so, we're back to the daily neupogen injections. i've been feeling pinchy twinges of pain in my chest over the past couple weeks and was told that this sensation is the actual cancer decomposing, which is kind of cool... if pain can be cool. :)
i'm planning a playlist for my PET scan next tuesday. the scan process requires you to sit in isolation in a radioactive safe of sorts for two hours or so while you're body's loading up on tracer, then lay 'perfectly still' for about an hour while the scan is conducted (intermingled with a couple of breaks to chug bottles of barium cocktail... yum). staying still is harder than you'd think! the one advantage i have this time around is that my itch is gone; being told you can't move for an hour with ridiculous, lymphoma itching skin sounded like some sort of POW torture. i'm putting a lot of hope into this restaging and want to enter armed with lots of positive music to avoid sliding into any sort of contemplative state of mind while in solitary confinement. suggestions of songs that motivate, inspire and/or rock you?
30 September 2010
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Now, this might not be your typical taste in music, but Christina Aguilera "fighter" might just be appropriate! I think this is about a relationship gone sour - which is actually kind of appropriate as you kick cancer to the curb :) Might be a little tough to lay still with this blasting through the ipod though! xoxo
Howdy jules!
You're in my thoughts today! In case you don't know, I'm a fan of Michael Franti and Spearhead. His new album, The Sound of SUnshine was released last week. While I was driving home from a beautiful foliage weekend in Vermont on Sunday, I caught his interview on NPR. I copied a piece of it and I would recommend the cover song from the album. Here's his inspiration for it...thought it might resonate.
Stay strong-You are loved!
Julie
The Sound of Sunshine was actually recorded after a very serious health scare.
"I was out with the Counting Crows and I had this abdominal pain. I felt this pop in my abdomen," says Franti. "My appendix had ruptured."
The time that Franti spent in the hospital inspired the sound on this album.
"Every day in the hospital, I'd go over to the window and I'd pull back the curtain to see if the sun was shining, and if it was, I'd get this feeling like, 'Yes, I'm gonna be better today," says Franti. "I wanted to bottle that feeling for people, because right now is a really difficult time in our country and in the world. There are so many things to be worried about, and I wanted to make a record that people could put on, and it would lift them up the way the the way the sun did for me each day."
Sweet Caroline!
Country Roads, reggae-style? :)
enter sandman babe...brings me back to the good days at VT!!!!! :)
I second Enter Sandman...Goooo H-O-K-I-E-S, Hokies!!!!
How about Dont' Worry, Be Happy! And Bob Marley always rocks my world :)
Hot Rod Circuit "Radiation Suit" Tuesday will bring positive news, I'm sure of it! :)
1.) Bring a book for your 2 hours in the radiation safe.
2.) Load up some music that you just enjoy listening to. I'd be tempted to listen to Old Country Hits from the 50s and 60s just for the fun of it. You don't need to be inspired while you're lying perfectly still - you just need to be distracted and entertained. As I'm writing this, I realize that today might be PET scan Tuesday - oops - my bad. Fingers crossed that it's negative.
Hi Julie,
Thinking of you tonight...annie received the "children's" bracelet the other day..wearing it in style of course!! i was thinking of songs..i am a bit older than you, but i think "rock you" or perhaps "Bohemian Rhapsody" by Queen...great music and takes you back to those simpler days...ahhh, well.....i could go on and on..wishing for the best...we love you..kelly
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